Introduction
Speak not, lie hidden, and conceal
the way you dream, the things you feel.
Deep in your spirit let them rise
akin to stars in crystal skies
that set before the night is blurred:
delight in them and speak no word.
How can a heart expression find?
How should another know your mind?
Will he discern what quickens you?
A thought once uttered is untrue.
Dimmed is the fountainhead when stirred:
drink at the source and speak no word.
Live in your inner self alone
within your soul a world has grown,
the magic of veiled thoughts that might
be blinded by the outer light,
drowned in the noise of day, unheard...
take in their song and speak no word.
Me
I am
-Madhu-
Age of
-89-
Loves
-Ancient history, anthropology, dinosaurs, cryptozoology, serial killers, neurofibromatosis, LOST!, Bones, How I met Your Mother, The Nanny, Monk etc-
Hates
-Not having a job and being a slob-
Dreams
-No space to put them all in-
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
Why dark and sinister, you may ask... It killed many brains, tortured many hearts and made many people cry.. you may have guessed! Yuppies, my EOY exam results were out. Not one, but every single result for every single subject. How disastrous can this get??? At least I gt an extra mark because of careless marking for both English and Tamil. For Geography, the addition of marks is not confirmed yet, Ms Wong may even deduct marks. I don't know. I was totally disappointed by my history results! Wah! Could I be any worse?
I thought that the Speech and Drama Night was fun except for the fact that blacksheep kept lamenting about her marks while I was internally crying and externally smiling and consoling both her and myself. She scared me before the Sp & D Night claiming that she had lost her phone. Thank goodness, she had left it at home. Well, at this point of time, I did not know that the worse was yet to come.
Yeah, after the
Sp & D Night, my parents came to fetch me. It was terrible. I would have been able to take it if they had scolded me like anything, but they failed to do that. Instead, they did something much more worse. They compared my results! "What is this girls' results?" "What is that girls' results?" I kept telling them that I did not know, because I was tired of explaining why I had done badly for my Humanities to them. They did NOT praise me for improving in all the other subjects. Am I all that bad? When I went home, I immediately locked my room and started crying..
I've never cried so hard in my life! I tried but I failed! I will try harder, but I never get the encouragement from them. What do I do? It was my sister who asked me how I thought I did, and I simply told her that I had improved for most subjects, except History. That is true! Now, I don't care what my parents think about my results. I am not as good as those geniuses in my school but I have certainly improved. And no matter what, I will surely improve even more next year! I certainly wish I won't be so humiliated by them again~
The End
2:45 pm
