Introduction
Speak not, lie hidden, and conceal
the way you dream, the things you feel.
Deep in your spirit let them rise
akin to stars in crystal skies
that set before the night is blurred:
delight in them and speak no word.
How can a heart expression find?
How should another know your mind?
Will he discern what quickens you?
A thought once uttered is untrue.
Dimmed is the fountainhead when stirred:
drink at the source and speak no word.
Live in your inner self alone
within your soul a world has grown,
the magic of veiled thoughts that might
be blinded by the outer light,
drowned in the noise of day, unheard...
take in their song and speak no word.
Me
I am
-Madhu-
Age of
-89-
Loves
-Ancient history, anthropology, dinosaurs, cryptozoology, serial killers, neurofibromatosis, LOST!, Bones, How I met Your Mother, The Nanny, Monk etc-
Hates
-Not having a job and being a slob-
Dreams
-No space to put them all in-
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Sunday, April 01, 2007
To say that I've been going through an emotional turmoil in the past few days would be an absolute understatement. Firstly, about what happened on Friday.. We left classes at about 9 am and started practice for RI all Arts and proceeded to do makeup and all. It was really fun and all but when we finally reached RI, two things happened.
Mrs Prama insisted that we should wear salangais and we thought that we would not sound synchronised so we argued that we should only wear kolusus. Suddenly she became very irritated and screamed at nik and me saying that we shouldn't take her to be a fool. I was so taken aback I didn't know what to say because I sincerely never felt that way. Even Chandra defended us (I don't know what took over him) and in the end we danced with salangais on, dancing with them for the first time the day we were perofrming. I was already extremely worried but I told everyone to take it in their stride and as a challenge and despite all that, we persisted and even joked about it in the end.
What happened next nearly broke me. After practising a last minute full dress rehearsal, we walked into the RI hall... and we heard this song that was extremely familiar.. IT WAS TANDAV, THE SAME SONG RGS WAS DANCING FOR!! And what school was it? It was CEDAR! OMG, i sunno what happened but I felt dizzy and seriously almost fainted on nik when I heard that. After a while I couldn't take it anymore and I called my sis and tried my best not to tear but I did in the end and nik came to my rescue and said lame things like "You are the best!" in so lame a way that I could not help but smile and I made a decision there and then. Crying was not gonna help anyone, especially my team. So I told them that no matter what, we were and ARE the best and we had nothing to be worried about. I am glad that all of them were positive about it!
Thank you,
nik, vaish, pavithra, sanusha, rhubbini, arthi and supraja! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH! <3 color="#ff0000">
divya, sutha, bhuvan, latha, arathi, radhika and all others who encouraged us on before our dance.
Thank you,
dheesha, radhika, ambika, preetha, nivi, neeti, aditi and many of our other rj seniors who came down to support us while we were dancing, even going late for your syf prac cos of us!
I know cedar thought that we copied them, just like how we thought they copied us but let's say that everything happens for a reason and all will go well! :)
Just like what I told nik, I probably never have cried this much any other year than 2007. I guess I need a way to let out my worries, anxiety and anger and crying helps more than anything. I hope me crying doesn't make me come across as a weak or vulnerable person.
Now, all that I am worrying about is SYF, math test, SS PT, and of course, RI All Arts finals! Hope all goes well, and with all the effort I've put in. it better does!
The End
1:40 pm
