Introduction
Speak not, lie hidden, and conceal
the way you dream, the things you feel.
Deep in your spirit let them rise
akin to stars in crystal skies
that set before the night is blurred:
delight in them and speak no word.
How can a heart expression find?
How should another know your mind?
Will he discern what quickens you?
A thought once uttered is untrue.
Dimmed is the fountainhead when stirred:
drink at the source and speak no word.
Live in your inner self alone
within your soul a world has grown,
the magic of veiled thoughts that might
be blinded by the outer light,
drowned in the noise of day, unheard...
take in their song and speak no word.
Me
I am
-Madhu-
Age of
-89-
Loves
-Ancient history, anthropology, dinosaurs, cryptozoology, serial killers, neurofibromatosis, LOST!, Bones, How I met Your Mother, The Nanny, Monk etc-
Hates
-Not having a job and being a slob-
Dreams
-No space to put them all in-
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I dunno what's up with me. I feel like a whole new person after reading It. Normally, whenever my dad is angry and starts growling at me/my mum/my currently-in-India sister, I will say there he goes again/roll my eyes/walk away/think shit, why did I/she have to do that? Today, I just felt like saying, "Chill, man. Stop being tensed about such things!" I dunno whether its people like Sorn and Os' influence but I think that its most probably THE reading that changed my perspective totally.
Anywayz, I think that the RI All Arts dance is finally shaping up (I see a glimmer of hope). I sincerely hope I get that that gut feeling I got for RI All Arts'05, RI All Arts'07 1st round, SYF'07 (and I didn't for SYF'05, Ri All Arts'06).. See? My gut feelings are kinda accurate! I dunno how many eyelashes I have blown away for good luck but they better work (the count is at about 15-20 right now), since I should have 15-20 times as luck. Also, all that Kadavul bakthi should also chip in, especially the intensive praying on Tamil New Year! I have HOPE
!
I dunno why I have to say this, but I REALLY don't care what others have to think about me. I would have cried today, but when I heard her say that, I just had no feeling (probably cos' I know for sure that of all people, I surely dun care what SHE thinks!).. It was strange but I finally felt like I had some control over my emotions. Overall, I feel accomplished today for some reason, like life is suddenly more meaningful (not that it was ever meaningless, don't worry, I was never suicidal! ><). When Divya said what she said during recess today, I realised that I totally feel that way! I just hope and pray (with both my fingers and toes) that this is just that 'TEENAGER PHASE' that everyone is always talking about and that life, or at least my view of it, will change drastically when we all grow up! haiz, I feel like I've blogged too much for a person who never even wanted to blog in the first place today. P.S: Thanks dheesh, for dropping in! Anyway, sorry to everyone that my blog entries are really really really really really really crappy but live with it cos' these are my precious 'ularalgal' which will be documented and laughed at when I actually read these things many years down the road.
CAN'T WAIT FOR LOST TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
The End
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