Introduction
Speak not, lie hidden, and conceal
the way you dream, the things you feel.
Deep in your spirit let them rise
akin to stars in crystal skies
that set before the night is blurred:
delight in them and speak no word.
How can a heart expression find?
How should another know your mind?
Will he discern what quickens you?
A thought once uttered is untrue.
Dimmed is the fountainhead when stirred:
drink at the source and speak no word.
Live in your inner self alone
within your soul a world has grown,
the magic of veiled thoughts that might
be blinded by the outer light,
drowned in the noise of day, unheard...
take in their song and speak no word.
Me
I am
-Madhu-
Age of
-89-
Loves
-Ancient history, anthropology, dinosaurs, cryptozoology, serial killers, neurofibromatosis, LOST!, Bones, How I met Your Mother, The Nanny, Monk etc-
Hates
-Not having a job and being a slob-
Dreams
-No space to put them all in-
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
"Sometimes we get so comfortable even with our inadequacies, our irritations, our deprivations, that we don't truly want to change. It gives us security to say,'I can't.'"I read this from a book called 'A Summer All Her Own' which is about a middle-aged widow trying to find her place in life after her somewhat ideal life is shattered when her husband dies.
Funny thing is, even though the book has practically nothing to do with me and the story is pretty irrelevant to my life, I truly identified with the protagonist and her inner conflict. Is it unnatural and weird? I was thinking of all the work I was supposed to do for the day and instead, I ended up pondering about life, my life and future, because of the book.
"The old adage that 'two become one' is only a metaphor... A good marriage is two complete people coming together to from a unity. Each partner has to live his or her own life.. My sense that I had become an extension of his life, his career, his needs, was never the true reality."I found her thoughts highly interesting and got reminded of a conversation with Priya sometime ago. She asked me if I would sacrifice my career for my husband and children if I strongly felt the need. No matter what response I crapped up then, now I truly wonder how it's going to be.
My parents are already asking me what courses I want to take and what university I want to go to. These prospects and the fact that my decisions are going to shape the course of events in my life frightens me. Till now, from my kindergarten to my Junior college, my parents have chosen their paths for me so this gradual responsibility that I have to shoulder makes me shudder.
Trust me, I know. Jayapriya Ardhanari, I think that I will win
THE BET 6-7 years down the road. Not because I can predict my future, not because I treasure $50 so much but because something tells me.. Shan't explain any further! :P
The End
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